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This is a site used to basically explain how my identity works and the reason for it being so complex, this is also to help spread awareness for my illness and it's psychological impact on me or others.

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Hello! If you don't know me, then that's okay. You most likely came here from my website. I'm Nazuna, but you can call me Luka or Via!
I created this to basically give a view on my complex gender identity due the illness I have (PCOS) and hopefully give insight to others and make those who relate to this experience a sense of belonging. Remember you are not alone.

My identity . What is PCOS? . Q&A about PCOS and my identity .

Alright, so me, what is my identity? it couldn't be that complex to the point where this idiot needs an entire carrd for it right? Well, sure. being Bigender and Agender isn't the confusing part though.

My identity is complex in the sense of this: I am bigender-agender, i'm a boygirl, a non-human, but I also consider myself a woman. See how it gets confusing now?

So now you may be asking, what the hell does that stuff even mean?! Well here's the meaning of bigender and agender. Being a boygirl falls into the Bigender category. However I consider myself a woman due to the illness I have and the psychological consequences it has had due to medical issues, but also due to other people.

So let's take this one step at a time, shall we? Let's start with bigender + agender.

My gender identity feels nothing like pangender. I am a boygirl, but i feel as if I'm nothing at the same time. It's the feeling of refusing to fit inside a small box so I can just be myself, but also wanting a box to fit in so others can understand my identity better.

Bigender is the feeling of having 2 genders, hence why I call myself a boygirl. But due to my non-humanism/cryptid feeling I also label myself as agender.

I understand this is still confusing, but...Think of it as a chocolate-vanilla swirl ice-cream/cake. It has both chocolate and vanilla. It's a mix that simply just makes sense.

While I relate to agender in the sense of lacking one, I also relate to bigender due to relating to having no gender, it can get very wacky, but it's my personal experience.

If you're still lost, I apologize, I'm shit at explaining. But I hope it makes a bit more sense.

PCOS is a medical illness found in females/afabs exclusively. It can be very painful without some sort of birth control, and that's not including trying to find out how much estrogen you need to find a balance. Which not only is difficult, but can fluctuate too.

This illness is sadly not very recognized by the web. And it's psychological effects are talked about even less.

PCOS affects the levels of hormones in the body. Most women/afabs have a set amount of estrogen and a set amount of testosterone within their body. PCOS messes with this and makes an imbalance which affects periods and other bodily actions, like sweat and facial hair.

Psychological affects are not as talked about or mentioned in medical papers, sadly. This makes many people with PCOS feel isolated in their experiences.

Many times people, especially women, are separated from their womanhood due to being more masculine, or are shoved into masc/butch spaces. This creates a distaste for experimenting with their personal masculinity and makes them feel a disconnection from their womanhood, which is precious to any woman.

Due to recent things too, especially with some saying that "no period = not a woman", which are traditionally transphobic remarks have also began to hurt cis women with PCOS and other illnesses, who are still a marginalized group.

How does this hurt cis women with PCOS or similar illnesses? Because it directly erases any femininity or girlhood they have. Pushing these women into masc spaces when they don't wish to be is inherently hurting these women and is playing into indirect misogyny.

As someone who has PCOS, there's been many times when transmen have told me I am lucky, or should be happy I am being forced into masculine spaces against my will. You are misogynistic if you say this bullshit and clearly don't know the full side affects of PCOS. It is not lucky. It is not something to celebrate. It is not something to be happy about. It's an illness and should be treated as one despite what you wish or want.